As I do a wrap up day before I take my end of the year vacation, I have just finished an email of thanks to the contract installer crew. I tried to be encouraging to them and thank them for all of their hard work. Somehow though there is an empty feeling in my being that tells me as each year that goes by in my job that the effort put into it has diminishing returns.
The sense of accomplishment that I got from what I do for a living has not been there for about the last four years now. At the end of each year that feeling grows stronger. I did find out this year that our services we contract out with our customer are basically going to be completed in four years.
The foreknowledge of that gives me and my wife some time to plan ahead. But for the next week or so I am going to enjoy my vacation and not think about the way that I have been feeling about my work. It is probably time to move on, but this time it will be on my terms and not the employers. For now though vacation beckons. I will enjoy it by spending time with family and catching up on the 14 books I have bought recently.