Ok, so what comes next?

Entropy is a bitch. Make friends with it.



Don’t let anyone tell you that they know what happens after your bodily processes cease to function. No one really knows, but some who have “passed through the veil” and returned, have seen a glimpse.


Some see God, some see deceased relatives welcoming them to heaven. Then some see a dark place, a place of rest…oblivion. Those people’s stories are what I am interested in. Why is their experience with death so different than the souls that see God and heaven? I have a theory; the individuals that find that place of oblivion are at peace with death. They know that everyone and everything is subject to entropy.


Entropy, it is not just a destroyer but a recycler or sorts. Entropy is an “inevitable truth” of things. There is more to the story as you will see. Entropy works along the opposite line as well. Death, Destruction, the passage of time, an instrument of Entropy/Life, growth, development, reproduction, old age (if you are lucky) and Death that gives life to other beings. Trees grow up and take in the nutrients of their fallen ancestors. Yes the circle of Life is driven by Death and Death is driven by Life.


Humans are afraid of Death because of its seeming permanence. We spend so much time as a race running from Death, all the while knowing in our hearts no matter what religious or spiritual belief that we may hold dear to us…that Death will outpace us someday and we will submit to the final embrace. Religion is based on the fear of Death. The question is not how we should prepare for Death and the afterlife, but how are you living today?


Are you a decent human being? Do you try to help others when you can? Do you take care of your family? Do you show loyalty to your friends and loved ones? Friends that is all that we can do as people. Do the best you can every day and if you can make a difference in someone’s life. Be the superhero for the person that needs it. We are only here for a short time. Examine how you feel about Death. Don’t shy away, talk to Death. Make it your friend and hang out with it. Death isn’t to be feared any more than Life is.


Entropy is inevitable, make a peace treaty with it now while you still have a say in at least your part of the relationship. Maybe if you find the reasons you are afraid to die, then you might find a more compelling reason to live a full life.




“There is nothing outside of yourself that can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek nothing outside of yourself.”


~ Miyamoto Musashi ~


The modern life with all of its wisdom as wonderful as it can be at times is hollow. Advertising agencies, government, public institutions and the like would have you believe that you have to seek all of your answers and information from them. When you seek “your” truth by looking outside of self (heart-self), you become a volunteer (notice I did not say victim), nay a willing participant in manipulation and hypnosis.

Notice how you feel after watching a television commercial. Do you want what they are advertising? Are you hungry after that burger commercial? Are you feeling a sense of discontent? Do the words or images go through your mind like a song stuck in your head? Congratulations! The advertisers of said product have hooked you. They manipulated your attention; put you into a suggestable state of mind with a catchy tune and bright flashy colors, and you never even noticed.


Now imagine if you will a young child maybe 2-4 years old. That young child is still developing mentally as well as physically. A precious child, which we as parents unknowingly throw to the wolves of consumerism every time we let them watch television or go on the internet without supervision.  That young child will be bombarded by thousands of advertisements and influences blasting through our televisions until they are adults. All the while a lesson is being taught…consume.


Manipulation comes from outside of us and television and the internet are just two of the newest and sadly most effective ways to influence and manipulate the masses. Stop participating in the manipulation of your life. Stop believing everything that you are told without thought. Stop looking to politicians to fix your problems. Wake up! The politicians and media want you to stay asleep; that way the manipulation is easier and you feel nothing.


You are the only one that can change your life, by work, by struggle; by thought and deep consideration of what is “your” truth and what it means to you. Seek nothing outside of yourself.





Alone with the rocks

Alone with the rocks.

Sitting on the rocks at the end of his days, the only feeling left to him was abandonment.

His children had long ago left him behind. Believing their mothers lies about his life.

The time passed and hardened the old man into a rock, very much like the ones that he sat on now.

Rocks know nothing of pain and loss, or do they?

They have seen every kind of creature that this world could make and the rise of civilizations… their fall as well.

Reflecting on his life, he did feel like a stone, heavy, burdened and ready to sink into the Earth, to be received by the mother. To rest.

The feelings of what others think of him had long ago been overcome, the echoes of that song a mist.

What matter is it to a rock? Rocks have their brothers and sisters and the Earth mother for company.

I have not one person left that I can trust, to share or to talk to he thought.

It was then at his lowest point he realized that his presence is no longer needed here.

I have served my purpose here. Nothing left to do but to wait for the Earth to rotate into the lonely darkness.

As the shadows grow longer, I will wait here sitting alone with my friends the rocks.

They will tell me what I should do.

You are your pain

This morning as I went about my routine it occurred to me that my aches and pains were part of me. In America and the western world we have been taught through repetition of the media, doctors, parents and teachers to “find the quick fix.” The usually means taking a pill and treating the symptom rather than the problem.

In modern parlance it is now called a “hack” or a “life hack.”  The problem is that it has developed from a way to shortcut a process to save time and energy, to becoming a way to give away our power and responsibility for our own lives. The process of living, even if it is in pain, is to understand ourselves first and others as we learn.

There is no shortcut to life, it must be lived and felt; even if it is painful. It is in our nature to feel pain. We are corporeal beings and along with the pleasing feelings of joy, love, and exhilaration we must and will feel pain in order to grow. I recently asked my mother when she was complaining about her painful knees to me if she had ever asked her pain why it was here. The bewilderment and astonishment on her face was interesting. The thought to look into her own mind and ask her self questions never occurred to her.

How many of us do this without thinking about the separateness that we impose on ourselves with outdated thinking? We are our pain just as much as we are our joy. There is no separateness. Not in ourselves, not with others, not in the Universe as a whole. The thoughts of separateness are in our mind. The divisions of race, religion, politics, are an outdated version of “reality” that are no longer serving the human race or the Earth.

Don’t run from your pain, feel it, ask it questions and then listen to the answers and heal yourself first, then others, then the Earth that we all live in. Reach out with your feelings and be brave enough to set aside your preconceptions and world view. Open your mind to the process, the journey if you will.

Being in pain is not unique, it is a right of passage. That being said, pain does not have to be crippling if we remember that the life we are all living is a process from birth to death, and our job is to learn from all the aspects of being human.

The next time you feel pain before running to the medicine cabinet to “treat the symptom”, take a moment and sit with your discomfort. Ask yourself, what is my pain trying to tell me. To rest, to move, to stretch? Only you can know the answer your body gives you. It is a message that is for you, from you.

As I heard on the Rich Roll podcast recently, “The process, is the process, is the process.”


Find a new way

Over the years I have discovered many ways to do things, most of them wrong. However if you learn from mistakes then it was not a wasted experience. Just the opposite; the experience was worthwhile. If you apply this attitude to things that you may have done in the past, events or actions that you considered mistakes you might find that there was a lesson learned from the outcome.

Life if nothing else is a learning experience, arriving here comes with risk and no operating manual. We learn by making mistakes. Lots and lot of mistakes. If you are paying attention then you’ll tend to not make the same mistakes over and over. One of processes that help us with this is pain.

Physical pain, mental pain, emotional pain…PAIN! Hurt is not always a bad thing, suffering is oft one of the best teachers in life. When times are good do you learn as much about yourself or others as when times are not so good? I thought not and that is how it is supposed to work.

You have experiences you make a mistakes, you feel suffering, you learn. The lesson can be great or small and over a lifetime the changes in who you are become significant. If you avoid the pain through the use of drugs, alcohol, entertainment then you cheat yourself out of the lesson to be learned.

If one try’s to avoid the really big lessons in life and trust me on this…you will be presented with them again and again until you get it. Life is determined by your attitude and how well you have learned your lessons in life. No one is perfect and everyone gets the opportunity to write their own instruction manual, one suited to them.

The next time you feel pain remember it is an opportunity to create your personal operating system manual. Look at life with new eyes and find a new way of living.


Be well,



Post script,

After reading this again, I get to apply it to myself. The last several months I got myself wrapped up in an organization that I will not name. Suffice it to say, I joined with goodwill and intent only to find again that others of evil means only wish to control and extract money and energy from you.

Seeing how events were trending, it was time to leave. I have done so with my head held high and both sad that I did not do my due diligence before becoming involved, and proud of the strength that I have to walk away from a corrupt and evil organization.

Lesson learned….again. Moving on now with a lighter heart.

On a dark sea

I have been posting some rather dark writing on Face Book of late and comments and concerns from two of my friends started me to thinking more about friendships. Let me start by saying that my wife (D) is my best friend, hands down. She has been with me through so much, we have helped each other get through some tremendously harsh times.

We have had good times as well and I hope we always will. There are times that I see more of the dark side of life and I used to express anger but that has changed some as I have learned to communicate in lets just say more productive ways. Writing is a therapy for my soul and I don’t expect everyone to get what I am writing. My writing is and always has been for me. If I can touch someone with my words and apparently I have, all the better.


On a dark sea I drift now.

Like a lost soul sometimes afraid and sometimes bold. 

I fear not the darkness that has me in its hold.

For the night is nothing but absence of light.

I am still now but ready if need be, to fight.

To watch over the child who has a destiny, that is my employ.

Not a chore but a simple and pure joy.

Be well this night my friends,

For we never know when it all ends.

Drift on the dark sea as it turns bright with life.

Our time here is but short and need not be filled with strife. –JP


Good night.




We  are connected you and I. Connection can take many forms, you are reading the words that  I have written here, hence connection. Our children are connected to us through DNA and experience and love. We are connected to our pets through caring for and loving them as well.

Connections can also come in the form of electronic/social media, video, music and good old-fashioned conversation. Whenever two or more people interact there is an exchange of energy. That energy can come in the form of thoughts, feelings, facial expressions and many other ways.

When we read a book there is a potent visual connection of energy that is formed in the mind, from the author to the reader. If we are viewing a picture of lets say an ocean and we really like the ocean; we will have a wonderful feeling about what we are seeing. Likewise if we are looking at a picture of the ocean and we hate the water we will also have a feeling, maybe of fear of a bad experience we had as a child with the ocean.

In all of life’s wonders there are both exchange and manipulation of energy that can only be experienced not really described. This energy connects us to places as well. Animals are very aware of sensing and using this connection too. Animals live their lives in the moment. They are very Zen like, they eat when hungry, sleep when tired and play when happy!

If only most of us stodgy adults could remember that (me included), so I am not pointing fingers at anyone before I point them at myself first. Take the time to connect to the energy around you through direct experience with nature, animals, a good book,  a discussion with a loved one or good friend, a motorcycle ride…however you like to charge yourself up.

Connect with life and yourself; learn to see your inner light and let it shine.

Be well,